Reset Button

There are times when I just figure I've reached the end of this level and it's hopeless, so perhaps hitting the reset button would be the way to go.

I effed up aspects of my life - and I think it's time to move on. I look around at the incredible, amazing friends I have and how their lives are going. They are happy. I want to be happy. I want to smile the way I used to be able to, but I know that's not going to be possible for me. Maybe one day - but no where in the near future. 

Perhaps the reset button is out there - I can hope, right?

Last Week's Dating Mishaps

So last week was a banner week for dating.

For those of you new viewers I do a lot of internet dating... I often blog about it - mostly because it can be quite humourous.

If I went on an internet (or otherwise) date with you last week and you don't want to read my honest opinion of the matter then by all means - stop reading now. Hurt feelings may or may not ensue.

Alright, so we'll start with Wednesday. Wednesday night I had plans to meet a girl I've known for quite a while. We were going to meet up and have some drinks. Now this girl is an actress.

For those of you who know me you know that I have a firm belief in not dating actresses. By and large I find them to be conceited, needy, shallow and if I wanted to date someone like myself I would. Regardless this girl is hot. Smoking smoking hot, so I figured what did I have to lose? Remember when I mentioned shallow? Yes, well...

So we met up for some drinks and one thing led to another and we ended up making out. Which was wicked. Really really good. Unexpected - and swell all at the same time. Here's the thing though - I had a good time, she was nice enough - definitely good looking, but I really didn't feel a huge connection there. So perhaps my warding off of the actresses thing will need to continue.

Thursday was a bit of a doozy. I had been talking to this girl for quite a while and trying to meet up to no avail. We ended up deciding to meet up Thursday after work - she said she was going to bring a friend. Normally this is not a good idea - but I figured why the heck not...?

I ended up kissing both her and her friend. Whore? I think so.

Friday was dateless.

Saturday I went on a date with another girl. She was totally cute. But boring. Super super boring. Why are the cute ones always so boring? Here's the funny thing about her though. We met and she shook my hand. I've had all sorts of greetings, hugs, nods, awkward "you're way uglier in person" sneers - but never a handshake. I save that for work related functions and family reunions "Hey Grandma - nice to see you, put 'er there." I suppose you could say in retrospect the handshake probably should have tipped me off and how non-exciting the date was going to be.

Sunday was a double header. I went for breakfast & a show with the cute girl that I was super into from a while back - it was good - I have no idea if it's going anywhere. But it was fun. Then I met a girl who I had no desire to meet with - she just seemed so crazy different from anyone I know. She was. But it was fun.

That's it for now... more dates this week though! I'll keep you posted...

Well well

Okay, I'm an awful person. It's been forever, and that sucks... but here goes. Point form what's new.

* Been on tons of dates, good and bad - but all eye-opening. I do believe I am getting closer and closer to figuring out exactly what it is I want/am looking for. Which is a good thing, right?
* Saw The Dark Knight & Mamma Mia! a week ago - they were both great in very different ways. The Dark Knight is really really really effing dark.
* Work is killing me. I love both my jobs, but I am dying a slow slow death.
* I forgot how much I love Murphy Brown - thankfully season one on DVD has reminded me.
* Musical of Musicals is going swimmingly. We finally have a full regiment - and an awesome one.
* I was at the Majestic the other night when I saw a guy hit seven people in the head with a hammer. Intense.

Lazy Saturday

So I think my body really shut down last night. I got home from work around 9, and didn't want to do anything. I literally was sitting at my computer, my eyes twitching and drooping. It was pretty rough and not enjoyable. So I slept. I slept until about 8 this morning, thinking that 11 hours of sleep would make me feel better, alas it did not. I woke up barely able to move, just feeling like I was frozen in my bed. Not frozen cold, but moving at all felt as though I was climbing this insurmountable mountain (wow, that sounds so cliche.) I think it was my body basically saying "times up - time to relax." So I did, I slept most of the day - caught up on a few things around the house - I think it should be okay. I've put in to not work the mornings at the Arts Club anymore - so that I'll at least have some sleep in time on Saturday & Sunday mornings. Yes, there's the people who say you have to get up and at 'em - I am not one of those people. I am sometimes, but I enjoy a good sleep in now and then.

It's 6:32 and already the masses are congregating on the beach. Two years ago I went with Christina to the fireworks - it was good times. I went last year a couple times... but this year I just have no desire to go down there, I may wander down - or perhaps I will get a text from someone asking if I want to go - I do feel better now though, so maybe.

I deleted a ton of people off facebook the other day - many reasons, I may have written about this already - but I did. One tried to add me again today - I am not sure if I will add her back at all. Some stuff happened and I got really hurt and I am just - not sure I need to welcome that back into my life so soon.

Soooooo melodramatic.

Customer Service

So at what point did we lose customer service values?

When I was growing up I worked at McDonalds. Laugh if you want, but it teaches you a lot, it was a very busy McDonalds (on the way to Whistler, Saturday mornings were crazy - this was before the Tim Hortons and such was there, so it was very very busy.) But at what point did this change?

I got into a taxi today - I asked the driver to drive me to Granville Island. He made it seem like it was such a big deal - and I asked if we could make one stop on the way so I could run in and pick up some transcription DVD's - he said no. I was shocked. It was on the way - it would literally take me two minutes, but he said that he didn't have the time.

What the fuck? At what point is this okay? Not that I think taxi drivers should do anything I say - but why are you sitting with your light on waiting to pick someone up? Ridic.

Welcome to Friday

It's strange, now with both jobs I always feel like Friday's a great day - even if I do work all weekend as well.

Things are good - this week had it's share of ups & downs for sure, but all in all - it was a good, eye-opening week. I really feel that I am at a point in my life where if I don't enjoy someone's company - I don't even really have any desire to know them. I mean, if all I feel is that this is a person who takes and takes and takes - well then I have no problem peacing out on that relationship - and I hope that people will do the same if they feel that way about me.

So, my week - the show closed Saturday to a sold out house - I think we had at least 35 people at every show (the theatre only held 60) so that was wonderful. Sunday was spent in bed, followed by a date. The date went well, girl was super sweet. Not too sure what's up there - if anything - but it was nice. Monday was a rehearsal for musical of musicals that went super well. I love the people in the show, even if they're not all cast yet. Tuesday was work, followed by work followed by another date. This girl had so much promise, but was incredibly dull & boring. It was all I could do to not fall asleep while we were talking. So so boring. Wednesday was work followed by more work followed by my house being shaken to the ground with the fireworks. I used to love the fireworks, then I moved downtown. The rest is history. Yesterday was work and work and a date. This one was really really good.

The girl and I have only spoken a bit - but like me, she's all about the 'let's meet sooner rather than later,' so we did. And we walked around Granville Island and went to theatresports and then had a drink in the backstage lounge - and then she kissed me, she kissed me! So crazy! She's gone now for two weeks, so hopefully we'll be able to keep in touch. we'll see.

Breathe

So I got through the first three shows - and the feeling is incredible. We played to a sold out house last night and we'll likely have two sold out shows tonight. I forget the rush of what it's like to be on the stage. And the feedback is just outstanding. People have really taken a shine to the show, and the characters. Despite the heat stroke people suffer from sitting in the theatre they seem to really enjoy it.

If you get a chance, come see the show. It's incredible.

I hung out with an ex last night. I hadn't seen her since Christmas. She's awesome - really great and it was nice to see her. She's a funny girl - and there's a part of me that will always be in love with her - it just won't stop - but it's great that we can be friends. I'm not really friends with ex's but she's special, and that's swell.

Other than that - four shows to go.